Wow, so I just found out a lot of people close to me think i'm spoiled o_o.

Just to clarify, things this quarter haven't been going to well for me.

I can't finish art school:
This happens, I know there are many people out there that can relate to me. But it's still devastating none the less. I'm more upset because I only have about a year left to graduate, and its not from me failing my classes or being lazy ( this is actually the hardest i've ever worked school wise) but it's because of money. Going to this college has made me more than happy, this is actually the happiest I've been most of my life (when your 3 I don't think you really know what sad is.) And even worse is i'm returning to a hometown that i'm not fond of, and having to be in an environment i've been looking so hard to get away from.

I'm not going to Japan:

Get ready for some pessimism, I'm upset about this because Japan has been my dream since I was 9. I've tried many ways of getting there but none of them worked out, and my school has a wonderful trip that I've qualified for twice now. I worked my ass off to make sure I was accepted, and I can't go because of money. again. This has nothing to do with how hard I worked to get there, it has to do with something that is out of my hands. This year was going to be extra perfect because my best friend finally got accepted into the trip and we were going to go together. Also, the places we were going are amazing, you also get to go with an artist and work with them and have a lot of fun (with hard work.) To me there is nothing like going somewhere to do art with other artists.
I'm not getting this chance again, actually for me to even get the chance to go with my best friend I have to wait another 2 to 3 years.

Neglected and Career Change:

If I don't get A's this quarter I can't go to college period. The pressure is very new to me (i've never been a straight A student) and i've been doing a lot to make sure I get the grade. But with all my troubles going on, my good friends (that are my roommates) have sometimes made things harder on me. I have to go to a state school that has a crappy art program, i've also learned enough from my college to do things on my own. So with the economy like it is, and with no clue about how I am actually going to succeed in sequential art, and the fact that I have to find a major that I can graduate with in two years i've decided nursing. My roommates have been kind of putting me down about it (not on purpose) not to mention that when all this is going down and I need a friend it's been hard for me to turn to them. Long story short i've voiced about why I feel alone and the things that go down that bother me but nothing has changed. (Something that commonly happens to me). When they get upset they can turn over to their boyfriends and sleep next to them and let their problems go. But i've been alone a lot this quarter, so i've been very depressed and angry a lot. It's been causing me and my roommates to get into fights (more stress I don't need)

Finale:
The funny thing is, I don't really feel the need to talk about the things that happen to me to other people a lot. I feel that everyone has problems and there's no point sitting around and comparing them. I've been through a lot in my life, but I don't like to talk about it because what happened in my past I feel has nothing to do with my present friends. But people that are close to me have been treating me as if I am immature, naive, or haven't gone through any hardship before, EVER. So I wrote this. Just to be clear i've been dealing with constant drama since spring of last quarter, all through summer, and now even my final quarter here at SCAD. But i've been doing my best to make the best of it. I didn't want to sit ant complain all the time, I just wanted to have fun and stay positive.

But its really frustrating when people assume because you try to be strong and not talk about your problems all the time, that your spoiled. Well, here you go, this is honestly only the half of what I'm dealing with. (btw Julie, thanks for all your help and listening to me!)

- Ciao